I know my parents love me...I know my parents love me, but I never let them inI didnt want to burden them with my sorrow or my painI wouldnt share the conflicts that tortured me insideAlone I raged inside myself, and against the ones outsideThe ones who sensed my weakness, and preyed upon my painUntil one day I made a choice and so rejected them I learned to hide my feelings and turned myself withinI despise not just my feelings but my bodys pain as wellI never notice warning signs of damage or diseaseJoy and fun are fearful things - I cannot lose controlIm lonely now as ever then, alone most of the timeAnd most times that